drunkencynic's Diaryland Diary

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2004-11-17 - otherwise engaged
2004-06-18 - chipper, campers? you betcha!
2004-05-31 - neglect
2004-05-06 - love
2004-05-01 - dreams...
2004-04-25 - my jr
2004-04-24 - a not at all intriguing web of intrigue
2004-04-20 - don't look at me!
2004-04-14 - charmed
2004-04-10 - don't ask
2004-04-08 - bad company
2004-04-05 - okay, okay, just one more entry
2004-04-05 - more voyeurism
2004-04-05 - the things one hears
2004-04-05 - weekend update with drunkencynic
2004-03-29 - well hello there
2004-03-29 - silence
2004-03-26 - fuck yeah!
2004-03-25 - mel.o.drama
2004-03-24 - hello again
2004-03-20 - auuughhhh!!!
2004-03-19 - scared
2004-03-18 - about-face
2004-03-17 - fuck and run
2004-03-17 - um, you might want to stay away from this one
2004-03-17 - ihop debauchery
2004-03-16 - aaaand streeetch....
2004-03-15 - any excuse
2004-03-14 - in which i engage in one-sided rhetoric with myself
2004-03-13 - drunk at 12 a.m. screwing someone else's guy (whose initials are j and r) even though he was mine first and adores me so fuck off
2004-03-11 - woohooo! yessss!
2004-03-09 - it burns! it burns!
2004-03-08 - ignorance is bliss
2004-03-06 - the narcissus complex and its slow decay
2004-03-06 - poseur
2004-03-03 - oops, i did it again
2004-03-01 - poison
2004-02-26 - dead poet's society
2004-02-26 - dressup!
2004-02-24 - clarity?
2004-02-22 - the greeks were highly sculptured people
2004-02-21 - teenaged whirlwind
2004-02-20 - hi
2004-02-19 - fucking hell
2004-02-18 - i feel so optimithtic.
2004-02-16 - the evil sisters melodrama and insomnia
2004-02-15 - weird
2004-02-13 - fuck off, st. valentine
2004-02-11 - look, mommy...
2004-02-10 - tainted love
2004-02-10 - holidays are always fun with drunkencynic!
2004-02-08 - vat do you sink?
2004-02-07 - fuck
2004-02-05 - public service announcement
2004-02-03 - scandalous debauchery
2004-01-31 - erp
2004-01-27 - drunken cynical punks
2004-01-26 - he's a very nice prince...
2004-01-25 - crocodile dundee, kittens, malevolent horoscopes, and celery
2004-01-24 - the male persuasion
2004-01-23 - mike bites the dust
2004-01-21 - damn computer
2004-01-19 - your very own weakling invalid updates
2004-01-17 - jr
2004-01-16 - a date? how normal.
2004-01-15 - more soapy-ness
2004-01-14 - better than a soap opera (or a horror movie)
2004-01-11 - mrs. robinson, you're trying to seduce me.
2004-01-11 - artistic pretentious grandeur
2004-01-08 - wicked
2004-01-07 - will you marry me?
2004-01-04 - woohoo
2004-01-04 - change of heart?
2004-01-03 - boy, why are you crying?
2004-01-03 - wicked. i love that word.
2004-01-01 - that's all
2004-01-01 - happy new year
2003-12-31 - what i can't say
2003-12-30 - the naming
2003-12-28 - part five billion in the sarah mopes about jr saga
2003-12-27 - what next, coherence?
2003-12-26 - please love
2003-12-25 - the wicked wicked flu (and merry christmas)
2003-12-22 - bleh
2003-12-21 - what i've been up to
2003-12-15 - the walking dead
2003-12-12 - milo milo milo
2003-12-09 - lovely
2003-12-08 - birthday
2003-12-07 - fate, life, the universe, sushi, angels, and everything
2003-12-07 - in which my diary becomes a great substitute for sleeping pills
2003-12-07 - please?
2003-12-07 - cinderella
2003-12-05 - warning: this entry really blows (no, not that way, sorry)
2003-12-04 - take me away, take me away
2003-12-03 - celibacy does not become me
2003-12-03 - simon
2003-12-03 - my vocabulary is too sexy for you
2003-12-03 - where's my pepto bismol!
2003-12-02 - sweeeeeet surrender...
2003-11-28 - renouncing this
2003-11-27 - psychotherapy
2003-11-27 - spontaneous lemon jeopardy
2003-11-25 - and your mother too
2003-11-23 - fuck
2003-11-22 - ...and bruises....
2003-11-22 - lipstick and bruises
2003-11-18 - my anipaniphy
2003-11-15 - tonight, tonight...
2003-11-14 - softness and quiet
2003-11-13 - lucifer the devil cat
2003-11-13 - fuck
2003-11-11 - i cannot stay away
2003-11-11 - like lime juice in my wounds
2003-11-11 - predicaments
2003-11-10 - ah, finally someone as narcissistic as i am
2003-11-08 - tonight
2003-11-06 - the guard at the grocery store
2003-11-06 - I'm...something...and vaguely discontented...
2003-11-03 - like an endless hole
2003-11-02 - quite unrequited. sort of.
2003-11-02 - melodrama and halloween pictures
2003-11-01 - torn apart once again
2003-10-31 - cop comments
2003-10-31 - costumage
2003-10-30 - wheee
2003-10-30 - explanatory exposition
2003-10-29 - finally
2003-10-28 - vanity will be my downfall
2003-10-28 - as usual
2003-10-27 - synopsis
2003-10-27 - options
2003-10-25 - you never know...
2003-10-25 - fantasy
2003-10-25 - i feel infinite
2003-10-24 - uhhhhhhh
2003-10-24 - serumbo!
2003-10-23 - miss me?
2003-10-22 - bah humbug
2003-10-22 - i'm scared
2003-10-22 - poor little guy
2003-10-22 - let's get it on...
2003-10-21 - mwahahaha
2003-10-21 - oops
2003-10-21 - vegalitarian
2003-10-21 - maladroit
2003-10-21 - does this layout make me look fat?
2003-10-19 - the dead ophelias write the worst romance novels ever
2003-10-18 - dissociative dickhead
2003-10-18 - not even halfway yet
2003-10-17 - grease is the word
2003-10-17 - have a good trip, see you next fall...
2003-10-17 - where has it gone?...gone with the wind...
2003-10-17 - what won't they come up with next
2003-10-15 - my sister the philosopher
2003-10-15 - ah, aspirations
2003-10-15 - what a sobering thought
2003-10-14 - quixotic
2003-10-13 - five of wands
2003-10-13 - i've got the lemon
2003-10-13 - give me the space to ramble and i'm off
2003-10-11 - uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh...
2003-10-11 - tick tick tick
2003-10-10 - update
2003-10-07 - ah, sweet lunacy
2003-10-07 - it's the little things
2003-10-06 - stalker?
2003-10-06 - ding!
2003-10-06 - segue
2003-10-05 - drunken rave-ings
2003-10-03 - i love drama too
2003-10-03 - i love to torture myself
2003-10-02 - sometimes I fear you're touched
2003-10-02 - not that i'm complaining, mind you...
2003-10-02 - classic fix
2003-10-01 - oh, now that's MUCH better
2003-09-30 - this is a ghost-up!
2003-09-29 - ...
2003-09-28 - millions of peaches...peaches for me....
2003-09-28 - pick one
2003-09-27 - powwow
2003-09-26 - vulnerability lies in imperfection
2003-09-26 - it's too darn hot...
2003-09-25 - just because you bought it doesn't mean it is yours
2003-09-25 - in which i most likely lose both of my readers
2003-09-24 - love me and my moldy fridge
2003-09-24 - why marius, i believe i was a little in love with you
2003-09-23 - how i spent my last four hours
2003-09-21 - cast party blues
2003-09-21 - it's just a matter of time now...
2003-09-21 - anipaniphy
2003-09-20 - what you didn't want to know
2003-09-20 - love means never having to say you're sorry?
2003-09-19 - to sleep, perchance to dream
2003-09-19 - the show must go on
2003-09-18 - healthy?
2003-09-17 - welcome back
2003-09-16 - isn't it ironic
2003-09-16 - much ado about everything
2003-09-16 - hate
2003-09-15 - goings-off
2003-09-14 - how mysterious
2003-09-13 - maybe i'm the bipolar one
2003-09-13 - breathless
2003-09-11 - lead us not into penn station
2003-09-10 - melodrama abounds in this one
2003-09-10 - here we go again
2003-09-10 - every day i fight against myself
2003-09-09 - in which, for once, i am not idiotic. much.
2003-09-07 - fire in the hole
2003-09-07 - stacy's mom has got it goin' on
2003-09-06 - ah, the glow of accomplishment
2003-09-05 - something is not right
2003-09-04 - to love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance
2003-09-02 - poisonous obsession
2003-09-02 - to become a spectator of one's life is to escape the suffering of one's life
2003-09-01 - and life ambles on
2003-08-30 - welcome to the monkey house
2003-08-30 - fuck me
2003-08-29 - choking on the soap
2003-08-29 - in which past, present, and future tenses get all mixed up and I realize that the world really is after me
2003-08-28 - \"i said, good morning gill...\"
2003-08-28 - just like john lennon
2003-08-28 - love is...
2003-08-27 - aha! excitement in the workplace
2003-08-26 - in which i listen a lot
2003-08-26 - but is it non-alcoholic?
2003-08-26 - sabotage
2003-08-25 - yeah
2003-08-24 - citrine grass? am i high?
2003-08-24 - arrr
2003-08-23 - sadist
2003-08-23 - ring ring
2003-08-23 - soap opera? you better believe it.
2003-08-22 - play goings-on
2003-08-22 - quite frequently
2003-08-22 - doughnut droppage
2003-08-21 - brief one-sided theological discussion
2003-08-21 - method in the madness
2003-08-20 - we are the modern bohemians
2003-08-19 - it's me against the world and the world is winning
2003-08-18 - ah, the trials and tribulations of foodservice
2003-08-18 - urp
2003-08-18 - yo ho
2003-08-17 - noowaadaaays....
2003-08-16 - i'm hero, and i'm an ingenue....\"hello, hero.\"
2003-08-15 - if you have to ask...
2003-08-15 - i prefer 'optimistic' to delusional
2003-08-15 - if you are among the very young at heart
2003-08-14 - at war
2003-08-14 - my head is a battlefield
2003-08-13 - hedwig and the angry inch
2003-08-13 - i almost crack but do get a good ghost story
2003-08-11 - call me schizo but i'm loving it
2003-08-11 - i b. demented
2003-08-10 - my weird little mind
2003-08-10 - ah, the joys of waitressing
2003-08-10 - i hereby proclaim this 'bitchiness week'
2003-08-10 - just don't crash
2003-08-09 - vicious and victorious cattiness
2003-08-09 - woah there
2003-08-09 - of course
2003-08-08 - she's baaa-aaack
2003-08-08 - i o.d. on adjectives
2003-08-06 - life as it stands here in holidayland
2003-08-05 - aauughhhh
2003-08-04 - mmmemories
2003-08-04 - run around
2003-08-03 - aha! a delirious update!
2003-07-28 - I don't.
2003-07-28 - assertion
2003-07-27 - sugarhead
2003-07-27 - put down the knitting, the book and the broom, it's time for a holidaaaayyyy....
2003-07-26 - stop the press
2003-07-26 - I can resist anything except temptation
2003-07-25 - we always knew masturbation was good for you
2003-07-25 - divine retribution
2003-07-24 - woah
2003-07-24 - kill me sweetly
2003-07-24 - and caller id fucks me over once again
2003-07-24 - gurgle
2003-07-24 - i am a wolf but i like to wear sheep's clothing
2003-07-24 - take that!
2003-07-23 - tommorrow may rain so i'll follow the sun
2003-07-22 - iii can't keep it doooowwwnnnn....
2003-07-22 - astrological narcissism
2003-07-22 - what's in a name?
2003-07-22 - hormones (and sentence structures) run amuck
2003-07-21 - in other news
2003-07-20 - oh shit
2003-07-20 - media overload
2003-07-19 - how long did we all think this all would last
2003-07-18 - drivel
2003-07-18 - mommy, i'm a big person now
2003-07-17 - i see dead people
2003-07-17 - conversation with a dickhead: sarah's bitchiness has a field day
2003-07-16 - you know, the one with the shell
2003-07-16 - in which my cynicism takes a reluctant vacation
2003-07-16 - a brush with murphy's law (okay, a smack in the face with it)
2003-07-16 - there's a light (over at the frankenstein place)
2003-07-15 - rereading last entry
2003-07-15 - reconcile them, fool!
2003-07-15 - thank you, thank you
2003-07-14 - aspire
2003-07-14 - you thought yours was weird?
2003-07-14 - mais oui
2003-07-14 - this is my life
2003-07-14 - your cynicism is simply a pose...beauty is a form of genius
2003-07-13 - a pirate's life for me
2003-07-12 - oh, get a life, sarah
2003-07-12 - mwuahahaha
2003-07-11 - sure, i'll just sit and watch you eat the food i see all day
2003-07-10 - and i don't wanna take advice from fools...i'll just figure everything is cool
2003-07-10 - take it as you will
2003-07-09 - R (or- a rose by any other word)
2003-07-09 - this makes, what, the millionth entry today?
2003-07-09 - someone save me from myself
2003-07-09 - go wash your mouth out with soap
2003-07-09 - bid my blood to run
2003-07-09 - out out damned spot
2003-07-09 - and now for the drunken part...
2003-07-08 - please be careful with me
2003-07-08 - all you need is vital organs
2003-07-08 - your hands already know too much anyway
2003-07-07 - that's what i want
2003-07-07 - mmm mmm good
2003-07-05 - four
2003-07-03 - i can stop the pain if i will it all away
2003-07-03 - that's why i don't hang out with them
2003-07-02 - hi, you don't know me, but-
2003-07-02 - well there's something
2003-07-02 - save me from the nothing i've become
2003-07-02 - eeek, conformity!
2003-07-01 - creation is fragile
2003-06-30 - one of the lost
2003-06-30 - pink gets me high as a kite
2003-06-30 - fuck fucking
2003-06-29 - i mean our
2003-06-29 - how do you simulate a cymbal crash with a keyboard?
2003-06-29 - narcissism
2003-06-29 - i survived
2003-06-28 - uh uh
2003-06-27 - dirty laundry
2003-06-26 - uhhhhuhhhh
2003-06-26 - the voice in my head
2003-06-26 - on the telephone line
2003-06-25 - mash it up baby
2003-06-25 - here i come
2003-06-25 - near you always
2003-06-24 - fuck you
2003-06-24 - hold it
2003-06-24 - nyuh
2003-06-23 - don't be surprised if you find this in your inbox
2003-06-22 - my standard of living somehow got stuck on survive
2003-06-22 - critical
2003-06-20 - glory days
2003-06-20 - ewwww
2003-06-20 - and life whirls on me again
2003-06-19 - heart spillage
2003-06-18 - tirade
2003-06-18 - touch me
2003-06-18 - should i perhaps focus on bad poetry or memories?
2003-06-16 - sing my angel of music
2003-06-16 - a plague on both your houses
2003-06-13 - exposing myself
2003-06-12 - sweet memory; a break from cynicism for a moment
2003-06-09 - contemplation
2003-06-08 - the other me
2003-06-07 - contact
2003-06-06 - in which i horribly abuse parentheticals
2003-06-06 - yeah.
2003-06-05 - stereo sound
2003-06-04 - and so it goes
2003-06-04 - mental and physical isolation
2003-06-04 - spillage (tomatoes, hearts...)
2003-06-03 - the requisite broken heart entry
2003-06-02 - goddamnit
2003-06-01 - my messed up head
2003-06-01 - don't you mean the shit list
2003-06-01 - sarah describes her day and goes slightly insane and quite neurotic and angry
2003-06-01 - cellophane shoulda been my name...
2003-05-28 - whenever cannibals are on the brink of starvation...
2003-05-25 - broken
2003-05-23 - life turns over
2003-05-19 - compulsive much?
2003-05-18 - fat cow
2003-05-15 - star envy
2003-05-14 - magazines (both kinds)
2003-05-13 - i feel so naked
2003-05-13 - beauty
2003-05-13 - mmm
2003-05-12 - today's installment
2003-05-11 - i want MY nipples pierced
2003-05-11 - Happy Mother's Day
2003-05-10 - hot monkey sex
2003-05-10 - discussion (tawk amongst yaselves)
2003-05-07 - hee hee
2003-05-07 - I hate Winnie too
2003-05-07 - today
2003-05-06 - ouchie
2003-05-06 - ranting again
2003-05-06 - phone conversation
2003-05-05 - love, HTML, and the universe (actually, just love and HTML...what were you expecting, jokes?)
2003-05-05 - the survey toilet, please let it stay
2003-05-05 - i wasn't cut out to be an html girl
2003-05-05 - damn i feel together
2003-05-04 - songs
2003-05-01 - twiggy
2003-04-25 - another rant (doesn't it seem like this is all I do these days?)
2003-04-23 - Are those...WORDS...I see on this diary?
2003-04-23 - rant
2003-04-18 - talk to me
2003-04-10 - you know what i mean
2003-03-23 - chicago killed the oscars
2003-03-23 - erg
2003-03-15 - survey says....
2003-02-04 - cool shit to read
2003-02-04 - Dickens
2002-12-29 - i deserve this
2002-12-26 - personality and fate
2002-12-12 - happy
2002-12-01 - ditzy slut, old friend, Milo, The House
2002-11-30 - ramblings
2002-11-25 - dream
2002-11-22 - milo
2002-11-21 - relief
2002-11-20 - on my way to being a psycho
2002-11-20 - don't hold your breath
2002-11-20 - infinity