drunkencynic's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- vanity will be my downfall For lack of anything else to do I've been re-reading The Other Boleyn, which yes, is a bad book, but I haven't run across anything better that can hold my attention (even the second time around!). Anyway, the Boleyn girls are always worrying about keeping and holding the king (uh, that would be Henry VIII- yes, the one whose attentions wandered all over the country). I know now. It would leave me completely destitute. If he were to decide I wasn't beautiful any more, or desirable, and take up with another girl. Which would be the epitome of sliminess, but no less heartbreaking. It's unfathomable. I shouldn't care. I am so vain. I want his friendship, his adoration, his affection, his esteem, his respect, all of it. In one. Mine. I want that clean innocent normality to be what I care about. And yet I want it all, even the messy, dirty, lusty, ego-inflating bits. Isn't that what love is about? I must be crazy. I'm sorry. 8:36 p.m. - 2003-10-28 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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