drunkencynic's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- exposing myself This is a poem I wrote after it ended with Milo. I've been thinking about that relationship a lot lately (I suppose in lieu of being able to think about the only other one) and all of a sudden today while I was cleaning my room it popped into my head. Be warned, it's lame, but it expresses an interesting thought. after it's over i heave a sigh put all your stuff in a box like i am trying to put you in a box pack you up neatly fold in the flaps and label it i try to tell myself it wasn't worth it anyway but i know that it was nobody ever told me it would hurt this much i don't know if i want to forget your wonderfulness or dwell on it savoring it what i could have had if life had worked out the way i wanted it to but life has a way of working itself out with no help from me so i sigh again and tell myself i will be fine and i put you in a box under my desk to be savored and remembered when it doesn't hurt so much. After I sent this to him we got back together again, only to break up later. But the point is- it was wonderful, and it is lovely savoring it now when it doesn't sting like it used to. I know I said I wouldn't talk about Thomas in this diary anymore, but I lied. That relationship- was not worth all the pain it's causing me. It was a lie, a stupid joke, and though I do need to grieve, it's nice to remember that it wasn't that great really. Life can be wonderful, and it will be again. I just have to be patient and in the meantime enjoy being a single woman! ;) 11:37 a.m. - 2003-06-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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